up down shake it all around, but im happy now

iv been a bit up and down over the last 24 hours or so...

brillig time with Robin (see thats how much i carea bout u, i give u catipital), even though i was late.. then had pizza on a whim with him, were good, got home and then was very very sad. as odd, am not depressed or even manically (is it called bi-polar now? please inform me if u kno) just occationally cry alot

was good as me and that boy i see alot of talked about jazz todo with us, i worked out why i was sad (mainly cos of my irrational behaviour/hang over stuff from when i was messed up*/just being scared wed split up - which is silly) and then felt all ok again, then read some of the stuff i was given for vday by that boy. very gorgeous too, so that made me happy. and then this morn got up stupidly early to go to robs to get my flowers that id left there (v rubbish), at like 8.30 i was up, dressed and at his, be impressed or just think im made for being up that early

that was nice but i was very tired and a bit useless. then listened to teh compilation he made me on the bus home and jsut made me sooo exceedingly happy. positively squeeling with pleasure with each new song..>>>>brown eyed girl, rome wasnt built in a day, norah jones, bright eyes, robbie-angels, feeder, areosmith, radiohead, aqualung, eva cassidy, bon jovi, halellujah, u2 ground beneth her feet, the verve, coldplay, damien rice, athlete,travis. the end. all my absolute favourites. was dancing on the bus, was so hard to stop myself singing. lush flowers, lush day (sunny), lush music, lush boyfriend, lush realtionship with God. was a happy happy happy bunny

still am

but should work

hmm

shall away.. goodnight and God bless

ps id like to give God full credit for my amazingly happy state, He knows m and my needs nad gives me such good stuff till it over flows, am blessed indeed
* have quuite a dramatic conversion (dont like that word, sounds like iv been converted from say gas to electric or suamt) story, do ask if ur hinterested im not like secretive, io nfact am stupidly open. do ask